Happy in your own skin

How can you live with out being happy in your own skin. I have never been happy with myself . As i tend to like everything, I have a full wardrobe so i can go from wearing Goth to Corporate suits without trouble. Same with music i listen to Classical to heavy Rock and Roll, You would think that this would make it easy to fit in but it doesn't, I tend to see people with there friends and think god how can you have it so together you know who you are, why can't i. To the outside world i am happy go lucky. The go to girl with their problems you know the dependable one. wish they could see me on the inside.

I guess the only thing about me that has stayed the same for as long as i can remember is my love for the Paranormal and True crime. But even that has caused problems for me growing up. I guess that is why i have always been the outsider. For those two things has made me not really care what people think, but do i?????

Or is it just what i think of myself that i have problems with.

Someone said to me once that i have great confidence my retort was "no i just have a big mouth"
But really i am just really good at hiding it, the fear, that some day someone will see me for what i am.