Emotions

Have you ever found yourself staring into a big balck hole and wishing that you could dive straight into it as it would make everything so much easier?

Man do i feel like that.

My life just seems to be one hugh illushion. I am very good at telling people what they want to hear, like when they ask "How are you?" Inside i am screaming, im drowning just trying to keep my head above water. But does that come out of my mouth NO "I'm fine" is what comes.

I have spent so long keeping everything covered i don't know if i could ever open up. I learnt at a very early age that if you show emotion or how you really feel people will use this against you.

But when do you say enough is enough?

Guess i'm not there yet.